My Psychic Path

It’s been a long time since I wrote anything here.  When I look at the last entry and realize how much has happened since my last entry I don’t even know where to begin.

On January 23 I had an unfortunate accident at my dog groomers job.  My finger got caught in a dog’s collar and I thought I had dislocated it in a couple of places.  Well, a trip to the emergency walk-in clinic told me it was more than that.  They sent me right to the emergency room to be seen by a orthopedic doctor.  I was splinted and told to see a specialist on Monday, this was a Friday.  When I went to this doctor (whom I should name but I won’t) he seemed to feel the injury wasn’t that bad and told me to wear the splint for comfort but it just looked like a sprain to him.  I insisted it was more than a sprain so he ordered a MRI to pacify me and told me to go back to work.

I was able to schedule to MRI for that Sunday.  The doctors office called me on Monday and said I needed to come to the office to get the results of the test.  The earliest they could see me was Tuesday so I went back to this doctor and was greeted by his assistant with a metal splint.  When he finally made it into the room he told me the MRI showed I had a injury called a boutiennere deformity.  The tendon had been ripped out at the middle knuckle.  He recommended splinting the middle knuckle for six weeks and we’d see if it reconnected.  He sent me to a therapist to have special splint made and that was done on Thursday of this same week.

Meanwhile, I should add that my finger was in a very unnatural position, having the tip pointing to the sky and the middle knuckle bent down.  So, I contined to work with a lot of pain.  On Tuesday I went back to the therapist to have the splint adjusted, it wasn’t really doing anything.  When I asked her what I should be doing to fix the tip because the splint only addressed the middle knuckle, she referred me back to my doctor.  As soon as I left the therapist I went directly to the doctors office.

When I saw him and expressed my concern about how my finger was looking, the doctor told me that “if you don’t want your finger to look like that forever I guess we should send you to a hand specialist because if you need surgery I can’t do it anyway.  I don’t do this kind of surgery.”  He gave a referral and I left upset and wondering why he hadn’t done that in the first place!

Well, when I call this specialist they couldn’t see me for another week.   I have to admit I was also having pain in my right elbow before I injured my hand and was trying to not make a big deal out of it but it  got worse when I hurt my left hand (I’m a lefty mostly). Soooo, I called my regular doctor to find out who I needed to see for it.  He referred me to Dr Lindberg, an orthopedic surgeon.  When I called them for an appointment they said they could see me that week for my elbow and they could also look at my finger.  Wonderful!!!

When Dr Lindberg saw my finger he scheduled me for surgery the next day.  He said I needed to have it fixed right away and we couldn’t wait any longer or it might not be able to be fixed.  He was also able to give me medicine in my elbow to take care of my tennis elbow while I was asleep, so I had no pain from the injections.   No pain is always good for me.

I am still recouperating from the surgery and expect to be for quite sometime to come.  I never expected it to be such long a process. There has been quite a few life changes since this injury.
I was out of work for a few months and I am still doing therapy trying to get movement back into my finger.  I am unable to use my hand without the finger swelling so bad I can’t move it even when I try.  When I went back to work my employer at the groomers thought I should be all better and expected me to perform like it never happened.  I felt I had to leave the grooming job for many reasons but mainly because it has been to painful to work with the big dogs right now.  I just quit last week.  I’m really disappointed it didn’t work out because I have always wanted to work with animals and it was a great opportunity to learn grooming.

Since I last wrote here my husband and I moved back to Manchester.  Our neighbors in Vernon had many issues and we didn’t feel safe in our own home.  I found a wonderful rent in a great neighborhood.  The yard is beautiful and we even have wild turkeys going through the yard.

Our dog is loving this new place too, plenty of yard to explore and a bigger apartment to wander around in too.

While I was still out of work from the surgery my husband was let go from his time clock job.  I think it is a blessing in disguise because now he is able to devote all his time to what he really is meant to be doing, helping people.  Check out his site at www.bobcrawfordonline.com.  He offers something for everyone.

I’d like to note here also what a support my husband has been to me though out this whole time.  He continues to be a source of strength for me everyday.  I have really been limited in what I can and can not do with only one hand, for months.  He even had to help me dress and bathe and he never once made me feel I was a nuisance.  He’s a wonderful man and I am forever thankful to have him in my life.  I really, really don’t know what I’d do without him.  I hope I never have to find out either!!!

I have to say at this point that I really listened to my inner voice during this whole time.  I knew my finger was seriously hurt even when the first doctor told me, “just wear the splint for comfort” and I insisted on more tests.  Good thing I did or I would have been permanently disabled.  I’m not even sure what limitations I will be left with when all is said and done.

I also found a wonderful place to live just because something told me to look for a new place even when I had no idea how we would be able to make the move.  Not only did we make the move but we are soooo much happier in the new place!!!

On a good note my stepdaughter Cindy graduated from high school last week.  We a very proud of her and look forward to her college years.  She will be going to college at Westfield State College in MA to pursue a education degree.  She’s very interested in special education and I am sure she will be successful in anything she decides to do.  She’s  a very smart young woman and I feel blessed to have been able to watch her grow from a young girl into a stunning woman.

I have to sign off for now and I promise I will be back in  a couple of days to add more.  I really need to give my hand a break right now.